This post is gonna be a little more personal. He was my first everything , its hard moving on. I always think about him and sometimes wonders if he thinks about me. Ever been in a relationship where you really miss the person and just want them to come back? I BROKE up with him because I didn't feel good enough. I felt like he was ashamed of me. I knew my worth and knew that I was the girl touring home to mom and was smart and doing the right things with my life. He sometimes was a asshole and did things which were really mean like tell me people thought he was to good for me or bring me down sometimes. When his mom saw us together he ran in front of me , Ive never had a photo on his IG for more than a couple hours. When we break up he has a girl thats been there for about 2 months isn't that something. Now Ive unfollowed him on Instagram and unfriended him on Facebook so that it may be easier to get over him.I hope it helps but I think he's moved on now and forgotten all about me and I wish him the best. Its sad to know he was my best friend and now we barley speak but maybe things were meant to be this way. I miss him, and him being one of my best friends.I remember when we talked about kids and how we would raise them and where we'd live and what he wanted to do with his life and what I wanted to do. This is my vent/stream of conciousness and I know it doesn't matter he'll never see this.
Confused Girl Brittney Slowden
I have no butt, no boobs , Nothing NADA!!!! The only thing we should consider an asset is out brain and personality. So many times in pop culture we see men and women criticize a woman because she has no visual "attributes" which are seen as attractive. This could be being to big, being to skinny, having a vuluptuious physique. Why do we have to say one is better than the other. An example of this is Meghan Trainors All about the Bass "Yeah, my momma she told me don't worry about your size She says, boys they like a little more booty to hold at night" Its ludicrous of the idea that what men want should affect the way we perceive our weight. Why do we have to look to a man for validation why can't we like our bodies for them being the way they are skinny or curvy or whatever your body shape is.What if he didn't like anything to hold at night? Growing up in the African American Culture the curvy body is whats looked up to and as a young girl I wanted the butt and the boobs. So many times I would compare myself to others and feel incompetent because I wasn't paid attention due to my lack of "attributes". BUT NOW I'm fine with my body the way it is. As long as your happy with your body it shouldn't matter what anyone else things.We shouldn't tear each other down as woman we should lift each other up, we should embrace every thing about ourselves and our bodies
Woman who loves her body